Fresh faced at 22 years ready to join the work force was me in 2015. I was fortunate enough to get a job offer a month after graduation and I was ready to rock!! I mean…it could only get better don’t you think?
I had a lot of expectations in life, the world was my oyster and I felt like I could take over the world. But, I guess it’s true when they say; when you plan, God laughs. The world has a way of humbling you because like so many young people out here, I wanted things to happen instantly.
I wanted to progress so fast in my career that when it didn’t happen, I got really frustrated and I felt as if the whole world was against me. ‘ I’m doing things the right way so why isn’t this one thing happening?’ This question kept running through my mind and it literally felt as if I was running myself through a wall.
But what I didn’t realize at that time was that I had a lot of growing up to do, something one of my seniors told me but I was too ignorant or rather too full of myself to listen.
Besides struggling with my career, I was also struggling with who I was as an individual and this in result affected a lot of elements in my life. Here’s one thing I came to realize… you’re as good as the company you choose to keep around. This is a lesson I learned the hard way.
At some point, I let the person (s) I trusted, dictate to me what I was, and wasn’t capable of doing. I gave them the power to clip my wings and trust me the experience was as painful as heart break. But as much as the experience hurts when I think of it, it put me on the journey of self discovery which resulted to the right kind of self love and education on self.
P.S: always learn that you have the power within you. Just don’t give it to the wrong kind of energy.
This path taught me that you can never give what you don’t have. So all the love I gave to the wrong people I gave to myself and it felt right because in the process, Marykenyablog 💜 was conceived, I finally became what I wanted the most; a TV News director something I craved to become ever since I got to work in the TV business but most importantly I felt genuinely happy.
I also learned that one should never be afraid to love. Follow your heart always but bring your brain a long with you. I know a lot of us are usually afraid of loving someone else because of the bad past experience and that’s understandable, heal you first and then move on to something amazing… take it from a 23/24 year old lady who is obviously not a love specialist.
Yes I’m still trying to figure a lot of things out. I still feel insufficient most times when I face my day to day responsibilities but that’s the beauty of all of it. Through those insufficient moments I get to develop muscle I never thought I had. I’ve learned to open my mind to learn and that has been the best decision of my life. My motto is still learning, still growing and always shinning 🌟 fall in love with the person you are and always work on becoming better.