Where do I even start, it’s been quite a year hasn’t it? But hey! We are still here. Stronger than ever and just in case no one has told you? I’m super proud of you. Happy Birthday to me!!!
27…I’m turning 27 this year and this time, I don’t know what I am doing with my life. Yep, at the ripe age of 27, I feel like a 20-year-old who is trying to figure out this new life handed to her…heading into the unknown with a flimsy plan of action in mind.
I remember being excited about my 26th year on God’s green earth because a lot of good things at the time were happening and I had the pleasure of taking it all in.
The train was moving as it should have been and then the world stopped. But with all the bad has happened, I choose to look on to the good and learn from the uncomfortable moments. Besides, life is a cocktail of different moments. We don’t choose them but we choose how to react to them.
Now, what has my 26th year taught me? I have a long list that would have a lot of you look at me weird but with my good judgment, I’m going to try and pass along my wisdom.
2020 hasn’t been an easy year for most of us. A lot has happened, a lot has changed, and a lot has been lost. And for Marykenya, what I considered as stability was lost. The period between losing this stability and trying to figure out the next step has been quite the journey. The old thought processes have had to be broken down to create room for something new.
…I’ve had to go through a lot of change to reinvent myself into someone that I needed to and to someone that I know I needed to be. Has it been an easy process? No! But it’s been totally worth it. I’ve had to be brutally honest with myself which isn’t easy especially when you have to do it all alone. It’s brought out a side of me I didn’t think existed. Resilience to see this process through has been one of the most freeing processes that I didn’t necessarily want to go through, but had to go through at some point in my life.
Reinvention is a process where you get a chance to change to adapt. To transform into something you see fit. It’s a process that I have learned to be patient with. There are good days and there are bad days, you have to take them all in. That means you have to come to terms with the good and the bad and love the person you’re becoming.
I’ve had to dig deep to find out a lot about me. A different kind of discipline has had to be instilled throughout this process and that has enabled me to work diligently on the topics I’m really passionate about. I’ve also had the chance to give them my all and also learn so many things that have enabled me to become better at what I do especially my writing. This has been my biggest accomplishment yet!
What can I possibly say to my 27-year-old self?
Be grateful. Every single day we are alive is a blessing. Death has been such a real thing this year it’s just been horrible for my friends who and I have lost a lot of friends and colleagues. From losing a best friend so unexpectedly, and having to deal with that loss every single day, has not been easy. So, on that note, show love to the people who are dear to you.
Take it one day at a time; The world in itself just keeps spinning and spinning. It’s important to find your own center. Find your own peace and hold on to your purpose. It is what defines you. It’s what drives you, and it’s what gives you a reason to wake up every morning. Guard it with everything that you have and with everything that you are. Remember that your purpose will continuously redefine itself as time goes by so learn to go with the flow.
…Be like water bend when you need to and be strong when you need to. Keep a positive mind and not just that; keep an open mind as well. Always hope for the best. Raise your expectations always and believe you deserve the best and just watch the universe working in your favor. Know your worth and add on tax.
Give yourself the best kind treatment and show yourself love by treating yourself and most importantly what I have learned during this period, keep promises to you. Dedicate time to always improve yourself as a human being.
Learn to let go. Learn to heal and learn to free yourself. I know this coming year will be an amazing year full of blessings, happiness, and greatness. Happy 27th Marykenya!!! Happy Birthday to me!!