Hey, I know it’s been a minute but better late than never right? In all honesty I don’t even know what to say, or where to start but I guess saying sorry should suffice for now…I’m sorry for everything.
Deep down, I hope you know that this is not a just a ploy to give excuses but my way of reaching out. A lot has been happening; the good, bad and I believe you know some of them and because of this, I’m sorry for not making you a priority for some time now even though I pretended to. That’s the most hurtful part. I got scared of writing. It happens. It’s been happening ever since I created you but I guess this time round, this hiatus was the worst of them all.
I got scared of creating and then mixed that up with a lot of laziness. It’s never easy admitting fault but I’ve come to realize that that’s all part of growing up; taking responsibility of your actions. Baby, I’m trying to be better for you and for myself as well I hope that I will be able to live up to your expectations.
…A lot of changes have come along this year and most times, I feel like my head is spinning. Also, also, I’ve been in the process of setting up other adjacent projects which literally consume a lot of my time. I believed you could do without me for a while because I knew you were strong enough. You always have been. The adjacent projects are doing okay but you just hold a special place in my heart where nobody or nothing else would.
I have been trying to figure stuff out especially because more and major change may come my way and learning how to adjust I guess has taken more time than I would want. Trying to escape reality at times leads to consequences that end up hurting us where we least expect and I’m sorry I put you in the cross fire.
I’m sorry for not believing in myself enough and as a result, I dragged you down with me knowing very well the kind of potential you hold and with that said, I never want to let you down again. I’m here to make sure you thrive and soar like you should.
But besides the excuses, I want to make a vow and a promise to you.
I promise to put you first once again. How? By going out of my way; researching, reading more writing more and also stepping out of my comfort zone by learning how to help you grow and reach a wide range of audience. We both know how bad I am at social media but now, I’ll move heaven and earth to crack that mystery. Thank you for being such a special and intricate part of my life. Thank you for helping me open up my mind, heart and skill. I can’t wait to see what the future holds for us