I Knocked on the door…this simple act represented my very last resort. “Come in.” A voice from the other side answered. I timidly walked in and said hey to the lady who’s office felt warm and her smile even warmer.
“Take a sit on the couch I’ll be joining you in just a minute.” She answered as she tried to pick something from her desk. I took a sit and all I could think about was, ‘where did she get this couch from? It felt like heaven!! I mean could I use this a conversation starter?’ She then took a sit in front of me crossed her legs, opened her note book and looked at me with the same warm smile.
“So how can I help you Mary? What has been the problem??”
Right there and then, I froze. My hands and feet immediately turned into ice, plus my tongue became so heavy I just found myself smiling sheepishly… I’m unable to answer this simple question and it just makes me sad because a lot seems to be going on. My mind is racing trying to find an answer but it just can’t.
“Would you like a cup of tea, coffee or some water to help you feel more at home??”
I quickly nod my head and say, “Water is ok.” So she stands and offers to serve me some water.
Still with her warm smile, she politely asks how my day has been so far…
I say fine, but immediately I give that answer, I get choked up… I’m lying about my day. Truthfully speaking it was okay but my mind and thoughts were hell. Therapy was my last option and here I am willing to fix it no matter what it takes.
Mental health has become a huge topic of late and it’s amazing how more people are coming out to talk about it. Gone are the days where people would associate mental health issues with being crazy and that’s freeing. It’s definitely a step in the right direction.
Anxiety and depression have crippled a lot of us. People may not like to admit it but in this day and age, a lot of people are dealing with these invincible monsters. A lot of people don’t realize that mental health is so sensitive that if not taken care of, affects our physical health which in worse cases, leads some people to self harm or death.
Now, the reason why I started off this piece with this particular therapy simulation, was to help people like me, who find it really hard to share our problems with those closest to us, a chance or opportunity to seek help outside our comfort zones. Seeking professional help doesn’t make us weak and vulnerable it just proves that we actually care about our health.
I believe a problem shared is a problem half solved but opening up to people who love me and truly care about me, is close to taking an engineering test for me…so therapy or counseling should be an option for a lot of people who have the same problem.
Talking to a professional about it would really help because in the process, you’ll be completely honest. Listening to how you let everything out will end up being healing.
So how do I tend to deal with anxiety and the mild cases of depression that I’ve encountered.
First things first:-
Prayer. I’m Christian and I believe that God is the creator of heaven and Earth. And that’s why when I get through those uncomfortable phases, I pray.
I do it walking, sited, working, writing and even crying. I find it healing and calming and I believe prayers have kept me sane through all those wild rollercoaster times.
Leave all your burdens to Him because you can’t carry them all. I’ve learned that the hard way.
Faith works different for a lot of us. It’s personal to each and every one of us depending on the higher power you believe in. For me once I pray, I believe it doesn’t work like a magic trick but rather like The most treasured therapy session. I lay all my troubles before my Maker and ask for strength, will and wisdom.
I’ve always said that reading is my safe Haven. I always find a lot of comfort in reading. The first books I ever read were The power of a Praying Woman and The Monk who sold his Ferrari. These two books literally and I’m not even kidding, saved my life. They helped me view life from a completely different level and most importantly from a point of strength and power. Books give me hope, and provide so much knowledge.
I personally love old books written by the wise from the furthest past. My current re-read is by Dale Carnegie How to stop Worrying and Start Living…my life was wreaked with worry and this particular book has helped me dilute all the worry I was carrying on my back. I’ll share the books I’m currently reading and re-reading.
Perhaps the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my entire life was to make peace with LIFE. I came upon the realization that I’m not in a position to control what happens to me, ever! But I have control of how I react to the events…trust me folks this is not and I repeat, not easy for me but I’m trying to make it work. I realize the importance of mastering my mind and thoughts. I’m on a journey of freeing myself from my thoughts…to take the drivers seat and lead… I’m still trying to figure it out but I must say, it’s been the best decision of my life.
Habits maketh the character of men. You are as a result of the the habits that you’ve adapted. During my process of healing, I realized I’ve had a lot of toxic habits that needed to be done with. I’m in the process of trying to get rid of them but it gets frustrating most of the times because it’s hard to break these bad habits. But if I don’t get rid of the toxicity that has clenched on to my DNA, I’ll never be able to live out my purpose.
My mental health has been something of much importance to me and I realized this when mine broke down. It was a painful process but I feel it was necessary. I wouldn’t have realized how weak I was and on the flip side, I wouldn’t have realized my strength and that’s why I’m not stopping here…
- The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck by Mark Manson
- How to stop worrying and Start Living by Dale Carnegie
- Life lessons from the Monk who sold his Ferrari
- Women Who Run with The Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estès